Quarter Life Crisis
I’m 23 in 6 months and l’m feeling the pressure…I’m
getting OLD! 4 of my friends are getting married, 1 of them is pregnant (I’m
going to b a godfather!). Some of my batchmates from Bainun are already
working…Where am I now? Still just a student. Just as I’ve been for the past
16 years…and not a good one. Still waiting for that distinction!! Doubt that
I’ll get 1 with the way I’m studying. Not much of a bookworm.
Let’s
revisit my ’singlehood’ status. It’s been almost a year since I made the
decision to go solo. I’ve mentioned why…and I have no regrets. The 1st 3
months was difficult. I didn’t really let people know. Some even thought I was
kidding…couldn’t blame them coz I’ve always been a joker. A few years back
some1 spread the word that I was getting engaged and people actually believed
it. Of course people who knew me thought that it was crap.
Fortunately
I have great friends that helped me overcome my grief. I was never in denial
coz I was the 1 that made the decision but there were some moments that I felt
depressed. Did I make the right decision? Was it fair? Am I supposed to be
single all my life?…all sorts of questions came to my mind. In the end I
applied the philosophy that ‘what hurts you but doesn’t kill you, makes you
stronger’. I’m not dead, so I guess I’m stronger than I used to be. In some
ways I am a better man.
Now, I’m
enjoying my single life. No worries, no responsibilities. It will be a while
before I get into another relationship. I’m just not ready yet. The next 1
should last till ‘jinjang pelamin’…ideally.
In the
meantime I’ll just be me. I have nothing to prove to any1 except to my family
& God. A girl may come into my life any time in the future. I wish the best
to my ex. I’ll just wait for the right time…Life is like a box of chocolates.
You never know what you’re gonna get.
